There was something in the air this morning when I woke up. I was slow to get out of bed, slow to leave the house and then as I was getting dressed, this wave of sheer contentment, gratitude and knowing fell over me.
I don't know how to explain it other than a sort of euphoria - a contentment for the people and the events in my life as things stand right now.
My birthday isn't until the end of the month, but in a historical sense I begin to celebrate at the beginning of the month. Why wait?
I've been talking with many women over the last few months about what it meant to turn 40. The thing I'm hearing collectively is that it's an important time. It's a time for things to be clearer for you. Directions and paths become clear. It's a time to make important decisions that govern the next part of our lives. I can say there's been something happening from the inside out over this last year. I can feel the change, my friends and loved ones can see the change.
Some of the changes have shocked me. However, they've all been amazing. From the way I've handled situations, to the letting go of dreams that don't serve me any longer and learning when to speak up and when to shut up. From realizing I have the courage to face certain challenges to understanding that I have the ability to save myself.
It's my job to save myself and I've fully capable of it. You are too.
Reality is, there's a lot that we don't have any control over. We DO have control over ourselves, our decisions, our reactions and the things we need to do in order to make our lives better overall. We have the ability to decide to choose ourselves. We have the ability to forgive ourselves and move forward knowing we deserve to have the best life possible.
When I woke up this morning, amidst the initial fog there was pure clarity. There was certainty that things were on track and that I was exactly where I needed to be. That while I feel like I know far less at this point in life, I'm more sure of myself. I'm certain that there are good things ahead. That God is with me and there's an exciting path ahead.
At this start of May, I pray God blesses you and gives you clarity on the things that haven't yet been settled in your heart.